Journal 49
27 October, 2015
My Darling,
I thought that this afternoon would be quiet, uneventful and insignificant. But then I had a phone call from Allen & Jessica. They were coming down to Sydney for the weekend and wanted to call in and see me. We had a couple of hours together. It was a lovely way to spend a Saturday afternoon.
One of the areas of conversation that I raised was my concern that I remembered so little of what happened the day you died – even though I never left your side.
As you know, Allen lost his wife in a motor car accident about 10 years ago. He seemed to suddenly rush into the conversation about memory and said, “That’s exactly what happened to me when Jessica was killed. For a long time my mind was a blank. It to0k almost 5 years for the details to return.”
I quizzed him on why he thought that was the case. “I reckon it’s something God does.” He said, “He knows our minds can only handle so much of that kind of information so He allows it back in bite-size snatches until the events are reconstructed in our minds”.
This process seems to be what is beginning to happen to me. Be that as it may, it was very re-assuring to hear Allen’s experience.
Well, I’m back. Since I wrote the above comments I’ve been to Church this morning and I spoke on the subject, “A Journey Complete”. I traced the high points of our journey from the interview with Tony through to the burial of your ashes and the two eagles. The response was heart-warming. I think the church family was affirmed in their care of us during those tough days. Since it was just this morning that I spoke I guess we will have a better idea of responses in the days ahead.
I must tell you again how terrific our children are to me. I don’t know whether you primed them to look after dear old dad but they are certainly doing that! They have a lovely way of making me feel important. I guess their attitude to life and people is part of the legacy you have left with us.
Well, it’s that time again – food time!!
You can be sure that I will write again soon
But Until Then…..
You remain the love of my life
Mike