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  • JOURNAL 65

    24 December, 2015

    Hello my Love, “Your first Christmas without your beloved Bev…’ So many people have referred to… [more]

  • JOURNAL 64

    21 December, 2015

    Hello Sweetheart, With Christmas and Its associated celebrations just just a few days away, I have been busy… [more]

  • JOURNAL 63

    18 December, 2015

    Hi Sweetheart, Every day in seemingly countless ways I am surrounded by memories of you. I guess there would be… [more]

  • JOURNAL 62

    14 December, 2015

    My Darling, It has been a while since I have had a really good cry. Well, this afternoon I’m making up for that… [more]

  • JOURNAL 61

    11 December, 2015

    Hello, my love, They say that Christmas time is a time of engaging with grief in a new way for those who have lost… [more]

  • JOURNAL 69

    25 January, 2016

    Hello Sweetheart,

    In a recent letter to you I made a reference to “the deep well of grief”. While I’m trying not to analyse my emotions too much, I don’t want to miss any insights that might maximise my ministry to others. My greater need is to experience my emotional responses and to enter into the healing that comes with the acknowledgement of their reality.

    Karen came across this reflective observation which she sent to me yesterday.

    I had my own notion of grief

    I thought it was a sad time

    That followed the death of someone you loved

    And you had to push through it

    To get to the other side.

    But I’m learning that there is no other side

    There is no pushing through

    But rather there is absorption

    Adjustment

    Acceptance

    And grief is not something you can complete

    But rather you endure

    Grief is not a task that you can finish

    And move on

    But an element of yourself

    An alteration of your being

    A new way of seeing

    A new dimension of self

     

    “….Absorption,  Adjustment,  Acceptance….”  Three words that convey a world of understanding.

    I assume I speak truly when I say that grief releases dimensions of who we are that we never knew existed. That certainly has been the case with us. Although grief is no longer part of your experience now (I assume??), you experienced grief as the disease took over your body and we both grieved that loss. Yet there emerged from within you qualities that inspired so many of us.

    But Until Then

    You Remain the Love of my Life

    Mike

     

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