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• THE JOURNEY IS OVER (JOURNAL 90)

  3 June, 2016

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• JOURNAL 89

  22 May, 2016

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• JOURNAL 88

  17 May, 2016

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• JOURNAL 87

  13 May, 2016

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• JOURNAL 86

  10 May, 2016

  JOURNAL 86 MOTHER’S DAY Hello sweetheart, I haven’t spoken to our children as to… [more]

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• Our Journey Through The Valley (65)

  12 January, 2014

  Every so often on this journey we have had what a friend calls those "Aha!!" moments. Those occasions are like a moment of revelation where fuzzy thinking is suddenly clear. These moments only last a brief time but they impact us in such a way that helps us know where the next step is to take us.

  I had such a moment this morning. Although we both intended to join the church family for worship this morning, the demands of getting ready were just more than Bev could manage. For the first time since this disease was diagnosed, it has progressed to the point where basic physical movements require more energy and strength than Bev is able to muster. It was just too hard. She encouraged me to go on my own which I did.

  (How honest and detailed should I be with this report?)

  Two related actions led to my "Aha" moment. As I went forward for Communion I walked alone for the first time that I can remember and my thought was "So this is how it would feel without Bev at my side?" As I returned to my seat I realised that fear has made inroads into my heart, my emotions and my thinking.

  The words formed in my mind, "You are afraid about the future. You are afraid for Bev because of what she will suffer. You are afraid for your children and how they will handle the departure of their mother. You are afraid for yourself and how you will handle the absence of your wife". (Why am I hesitant to use the 'D' word?)

  Whatever happened to "Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will not be afraid because you are with me"?

  The journey continues.