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• Journal 33

  28 August, 2015

  My Darling,

  On just a few occasions since I’ve been writing “Letters to Bev”, I’ve almost started with “I hope you are well”!!  I almost did it this time, too! If being in the presence of the Lord is even a shadow of what is taught in Scripture, then my question is completely unnecessary.

  There are so many reminders every day of your absence. Photos stir the deep wells of memory, of course. Some days it seems like you have been gone forever. On other days it’s like it was just a couple of weeks since you left.  

  Sometimes the tug of heaven is stronger than at other times. Whatever, that “pull” is always there. I’m not sure that I want it to be otherwise. As I have observed on a few other occasions, heaven is more precious now that you have gone ahead. Similarly, being here on earth doesn’t have quite the same appeal or attraction as once was the case.

  None of that is to suggest that my life is miserable. I am finding some renewed sense of purpose as the days pass. Pastor Tony has asked me if I would become an Elder in our church. I warmed to the idea but talked it over with our children to see how they felt about it. I got three green lights from them so I’m going to see if it works.

   I often play my theme song and reflect on the lines,

  “But until then my heart shall go on singing, until then, with joy I’ll carry on

  Until the day my eyes behold King Jesus, until the day God calls me home.

   

  Do you recall in our interview with Pastor Tony (is it really over 2 years ago?), how you described heaven as “home” and referred to the lines of that old hymn

  Here in the body pent,
  Absent from Him I roam,
  Yet nightly pitch my moving tent
  A day’s march nearer home

  I listened to that interview again just recently and I heard your voice ‘catch’ with emotion as you told the church, “I’m going home”. So with my theme song, “until that day God calls me home”.

  In my last letter to you I used an expression that I did not notice until I read the completed letter.

  “…..my part of our journey is a solo flight”. That aviation imagery helped me greatly. But so did the recognition that it is still our journey!! Even though you are not with me in what still remains to be done, I am seeking to complete my part of our journey.

  But Until Then….

  You remain the love of my life

  Mike